Being broke is exhausting.

Job-hunting is exhausting.

Maybe it’s because I spent yesterday trimming trees and assembling brush burn piles, and so today I’m so sore my armpits hurt (who knew those could hurt?!), but I am just completely, 100% flat-out exhausted with life.

And I get to do it all over again today.

The past few weeks I’ve been MIA, trying to do what I could to get back into school, but it’s just never that easy. There are always road blocks. My particular initial roadblock was a doozy, the collection agency handling my defaulted student loan.  Here’s how the phone conversation with them went: Them:  “So, what kind of income do you have?” Me: “Well, I have a solid $250 that comes to me once a month.” Them: “So, do you think you could pay us $750 a month?”

Making $250 a month probably sounds like nothing to most people, but between The Boyfriend and I, we manage to pay our bills and do a little thrifting every now and then. We mangage. Don’t know how, don’t know why, but we manage.  We have decent clothes, more than will fit in our drawers, plenty of food, enough cleaning supplies and health/beauty products to last us for over a year, 2 laptops, a paid-off car, and a flat panel television.  We make a lot less than most of our friends but mangage to have a lot more. Which is saying something to our credit, I guess. But it’s still not enough.  So I’ve been looking to increase that $250 a month, by any means necessary.

I keep putting in resumes. Doing odd jobs. Trying to figure out how to do anything I can for an extra buck.  Pulling my hair out, because every place I put in for a job is either a scam, not interested in me once I give up my race/gender/ethnicity information (I thought it was illegal to discriminate! I guess it’s only okay if you’re white, now…arg), or they require so much experience for such a menial job, what’s the point? I mean, I need to have a Master’s degree to sweep floors these days?  Does this mean that’s what I have to look forward to once I’m out of school?  It just makes me feel so…depleted!

That said, I still feel blessed in many ways. But we all need to vent once in awhile, and that is where I am at present.  I think I’ll feel better once I trim some more trees.

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